In My Life....

I have been to the top of a mountain and to the bottom of the valley I have the physical scars to prove it.
I have fought the fight for life and come out on the other side.
I have loved beyond reason and been all the better for that love.
I have been loved beyond reason and that made me run.
I have given shamelessly and purposefully to enrich myself.
I have been the one that was leaned on and been the leaner at times.
I have been destitute more than once and been very rich other times.
I have been so blinded by my "Renee Bubble" I didn't even know I was destitute so rich was my life.
I have known passion unmatched and felt sadness unrivaled.
I have swam in the warmest waters and lived through the coldest winters.
I have had friendships undying and had friends leave I never thought would.
I have watched a soul mate leave this earth after she fought for her life.
I have fought for the life of the one who should've been my soul mate.
I have watched the stars and the moon and dreamed and wished upon them.
I have given birth and experienced the greatest joy of my life.
I have made mistakes and learned to live with them.
I have made good choices and been blessed beyond measure.
I have been a secret keeper and been the secret that was kept.
I have prayed for peace and waited for the day it would come.
I have been on the end of an abusive hand more than once and didn't let it change who I was.
I have been saddened beyond measure and been happier than a person should be allowed to be.
I have known fear that was chilling and unrelenting and conquered that fear.
I have known happiness that warmed me to my very core.
I have been in the public spotlight and yet remain hidden, by choice of course.
I have secretly been involved with a nationally known public figure and yet I still cannot discuss it.
I have been the keeper of peoples dreams and held them in my hands.
I have been the dasher of others dreams and regret the way I handled every one of them.
I have decided to never dash anyones dreams ever again unless they are ones that shouldn't be dreamed and are harmful.
I have watched every child I have ever met and looked for the one special thing that makes them uniquely who they are.
I have never completely given my heart to someone , yet I love everyone in some way.
I have been published.
I have painted murals upon murals.
I have a million dreams still running through my mind waiting to be let out.
I have gone over 100mph….more than once.
I have had hair short enough I looked like a boy and hair so long I could sit on it.
I have never known the true love only a mother could give.
I have put myself to the side so others could have what I did not.
I have walked barefoot over gravel roads.
I have swam in creeks and come out with leeches.
I have walked away from opportunities only to be given another.
I haven't always chosen the easiest path to follow.
I have never regretted that either.
I have ridden the "L" train.
I have walked through a gangway.
I have been to the top of reunion tower.
I have eaten Doritos and drank OJ on a strangers porch to get out of the rain and to pass the afternoon.
I have smiled at almost everyone I have ever looked at.
I have constantly been mistaken as an employee everywhere I have shopped. And asked to help find things in that store.
I have never told anyone I didn't work there. I helped them find what they needed.
I have walked away from what I thought would be my home forever.
I have made a life for myself.

And still….I have a lot of life to live and to give.